Friday, November 5, 2010
Just one of those days...
You have all these expectations for yourself....you'll do this and that and it will all be wonderful and you have those rose colored glasses on...let me start out by saying i am incredibly blessed...i have a wonderful husband who loves me(and whom i love) and a beautiful baby boy...but i've just had a kinda depressed sorta day! nothing bad has happened just in a mood...it bugs me because this is not me! i would much rather walk around with my rose colored glasses on and smile and ignore the bad and just pay attention to the good! but i'm just not feelin good right now...i wish all of my laundry was always done and folded and ironed and put away! but even as soon as you get everything done there is always that little pile that sneaks up out of nowhere! ha you know you have expectations for yourself and then when you don't fulfill them perfectly it just kinda bugs you! i want my menu to be planned out for the week(as well as all the coupons printed), all my dishes to be clean all the time, my base boards to be cleaned, floors spotless, sheets clean and ironed, closets organized, toe nails painted, lol etc etc...but then Hunter wants to be held and i'm sorry(actually i'm not and i never will be) i will drop whatever i'm doing and go sit and kiss my little man...So everything else can wait...i have no clue where i'm going with this i just have no interest in going to bed right now so i just thought i'd write...and it's not really going anywhere...oh well here's to randomness!;)
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I've had those days, but after much prayer, I am much better now. I asked God to help me "let go" of my VERY high expectations about the perfect me, the perfect house and the perfect kids, and He did just that. I'm still anal about lots of things, but I am much better than I used to be.
ReplyDeleteYou're doing the perfect thing by dropping everything and kissing your little man...these days will be gone before you know it. Even this time next year, unless he's sick, he probably won't want to be held so much. And then, before you know it, they're 7, almost 8. :(
Enjoy the days while you have them. And go buy the book by Karen Kingsbury called "Let Me Hold You Longer" from Lifeway. :)
I totally agree - and understand what you are saying! Laundry is a battle I just cannot win..as well as dust on my furniture, flowerbeds that need attention, pantry that needs to be stocked, etc. Ava is the only one I have at home now and I literally stop what I am doing when she says, "Mom, I want to sit with you." So she climbs in my lap with her blanket and we watch "Max and Ruby" or "Little Bear" or "Spongebob". Soon enough, she will be in school too and I will be home by myself with no one asking to sit with me. I agree -- soak it up while you can! These memories are proceless!
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