How did this happen??? life changes so quickly sometimes it takes the breath out of me! it's so crazy to think that 2 years ago all i had to worry about was what i was gonna do tonight and when my next test was...NOW! i have laundry to do, dirty dishes in the sink, a car in the driveway that needs to be fixed(because it committed suicide randomly a few weeks ago) so we can sell it and then sell my husbands truck to reconfigure our car situation with a baby, a nursery to finish and so so much to clean and organize...oh and i still have a research paper to finish for tomorrow night! and i can't sleep at night...this little boy will be calm and just kinda hang out throughout the day and then at night he KILLS me! i was up until 4 or 430 am because i just couldn't go to sleep through it...i would doze off and right when i was about to be asleep he would push with all his might against my ribs...wow what a story that would be to hold over his head for the rest of his life...not the oh well when i was in labor with you for 36 hours and yada yada yada but well when i was pregnant and YOU CRACKED MOMMY'S RIB! so i can't sleep at night and therefore end up waisting my day because i'm so tired! ugh....and my husband has had to work so much he can't honestly help with too much of it and i completely understand! so anyways there it is....i'm gonna go fix myself dinner cuz my hubby is on duty AGAIN! for the umteenth time....seriously i'm thankful he broke his leg...first and foremost he isn't deployed right now and will be here for the birth of our son and second we actually got to spend time together!!! if he hadn't i'm pretty sure i would have spent the majority of our first year of marriage alone...joys of military life:) please don't get me wrong...i mean i love love love my husband to death and am so thankful i get to be a mommy to this preciuos little boy(even if sometimes i would like to evict him right now!)....and i really wouldn't change a thing about my life...i mean i've learned something from every experience and all the "things" ben and i have had to deal with throughout this year have only helped us....two weeks before our wedding he found out he wasn't getting his leave he requested months beforehand and might not even make it to our wedding...i mean we went from being married and him being gone almost the entire time, to the awfulness of him breaking his leg and then we were together literally 24/7 for months and months...and then i found out i was pregnant! oh my goodness...and i'm proud to say we still laugh together almost everyday and he is absolutely my best friend...through the trials you build up strength...i mean we have the reassurance that whatever life might throw at us we can make it and struggle through it together...yes we're still learning but how old are you when you stop learning??? hey atleast this year hasn't been boring! went from this.....
to this....hey somthings different....
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completely in love and oblivious to what all was coming......
he hated being up in front of all those people...doesn't he look terrified? hah i love this picture
i think i would have laughed in your face if you had told me these next two pictures were gonna be where we were at on our first anniversary!
everything happens for a reason...and i whole-heartedly believe this little boy was meant to be a part of our life right now....
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